- October 7th, 2007, 5:31 am
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Last night I was ticked off. We had just led a I-A the entire game and gave it away at the end. Did I let my emotions get in the way of logic? Definitely. Did I cool off as the night went on? Yes, I did. That's evidenced by what I posted. I went from looking up sheer numbers to trying to use what Coach has said in interviews and press conferences to determine why we lost. Something in my head clicked after I looked up the Presby numbers. After having some time to sleep on it, I realize I said some things that were sheer emotions speaking. I probably knew at the time that it was just emotions speaking when I said it. Does that make it better? No, not at all. The thing is, I know when to admit I was wrong. Does me saying this make those things better? No, not really. I could go back and edit them so that people can't see what I said but that's not the point. Are there things that worry me? Yes, there are. However, I've never once questioned the coaching staff. That's something I will not do. Period. I have complete faith that they will change something. They do every week. After the W&M game, they fixed things so that we didn't get killed by the tight end over the middle every play and added more pressure. Elon found a way to beat us. They fixed that last night, but our guys didn't tackle. The coaches can't tackle for the players. Me saying the players couldn't tackle is completely based on the way Jerry Edwards described the game, so it could very well be completely wrong. Do I think we should've run more at the end of the game? Yes, but with that being said, I didn't see the defenses that were being played, I didn't know how Rashad was feeling endurance wise, I don't know all of the intangibles to say that yes, we should've definitely ran the ball. That's why I absolutely hate listening to games on the radio, especially our radio. It's hard to tell what's going on until after it happens or you can see all the things that go into calling one play in football. We've let Brock lead us down the field before to put us in a winning situation and in EVERY case before last night, he had (Towson, G-W, Coastal, W&M). That's why I said last night that it was the first time Brock hadn't put us in a chance to win, and quite honestly, he did give us a chance and we just committed a penalty. In most cases, I can say to someone on here, "Yea, you'd have a good point, but that isn't how it actually happened and you couldn't tell that because you weren't there." Well, unfortunately, I wasn't there. I wanted to be, but just couldn't afford it. Usually I'm the voice of reason when everyone around me is going off the deep end. Last night I wasn't. One thing that I will not accept is someone questioning my loyalty. Last night, on a night when my family was celebrating my birthday (albeit a week early), I spent the majority of the night listening to the game and somewhat talking to them (except at dinner). After the game was over, I immediately started making plans for the Charleston Southern trip since the others fell through and it's only going to be two of us now. I was still at our game last week hours before hand, by myself no-less, because I was excited for the game and wanted to tailgate even if it meant sitting in the back of my car listening to the radio. I admit I was vocal last night and let my emotions speak for me. I even said, "I'm normally not vocal after losses, and I try to stay positive, but tonight was just the tipping point for me." Part of that was frustration with the loss, part of it was not being there, part of it was other things compiling to help me reach that point where you lose your logic and speak on just emotions. That proves, if anything, that I'm just a 20 year old kid with a lot to learn. Am I outspoken and opinionated? Yes, and I always will be, it's who I am. The difference is, I'll admit when I was wrong, and last night, I was. I said things on sheer emotion that I shouldn't have and if anyone more important than me is reading this, I apologize. I very likely would've had a completely different opinion of the game if I was able to see it but I wasn't. The great thing about going to the games like this is I normally "cool off" walking to the car or driving back home. Last night, I was emotional and had a laptop sitting in front of me from the get go and didn't have the discipline to say, "Wait, cool off, come back later." For that, I apologize. The only thing I can say about the rest of the season is you'll see me there, at every game, being just as loud and just as supportive as I was the first five games of the season. The players like to say that the Elon game didn't happen and that them coming out flat was a fluke, etc. I'm saying the same about last night. It was a fluke. I let my emotions take over. It won't happen again. Sorry to anyone reading this that was offended.